The past few days I've been doing a lot of thinking. Yes it's a very dangerous thing but sometimes it helps put things in perspective.
One thing I've found out lately is how much my husband actually loves me. Since he's been on the night shift he tries so hard to make it up to me. It's throwing everyone and everything off balance but he makes a point to try and console me. I think that if I asked if in all sincerity to quit and find another job he would. I won't but it's a nice fact to know.
I've been going at the night shift thing all wrong. I get jealous and upset and I really don't need to. He is working his butt off to make Valentines extremely nice for us this year. He's actually planning it too not me. And he wants to be the provider and bring the checks home so I can have what I want.
I think that I owe my hubby a huge apology and need to give everything a fresh start. He loves his job and me. I have to remember that most of all he wants to be with me and he wants me happy. I love him with all my heart. In May we'll have been married for 3 years and together for 4. He swears we'll be together till the end of time. How sweet is he lol!!!!!!!!!